I’ve been with Azkaban for quite sometimes and I can say that I worked very hard just to get
to where I am. The work hours are sickening, the pay is frustrating but at the
end of the day I am happy. “Lahat ng trabaho may problema” , that
is what I can always say to my friends each time they tried to convince me that
I am supposed to be earning more than what I am making right now. With the
amount of work and the skills I have, I know I deserved better. But money is
not the issue. As I said, I love my job and I am happy with what’s going on
with my life right now- not until that day.
...We act with integrity.
I may be
over-reacting but there’s a principle involved. I take my job seriously and the
ethics that comes along with it. I don’t break the law simply because it will only come back to bite me in the ass one day. And the words
like “Hindi naman nila malalaman” is simply BULL SHIT. The fact that I got involved into falsifying records no
matter how small that is, can be a start of something big.
I now realized, I cannot
work for these people anymore. I am not the overly achiever when I was in
school. I am not the brightest among my bunch but what makes me stand out is
the fact that I do my job with utmost integrity, loyalty and accuracy. I don’t
take short cuts. I always choose to take the high roads no matter how hard, no
matter how uncomfortable because that is the only way I know I can win in life.
But today, I broke my rule. I was defeated by
my fear. My credibility was shattered. With just one flick of falsified records
happened under my nose, my whole career became a horrible travesty. I can’t be
trusted anymore. This is not who I am. I became the horror I said I will never
be… I am now one of them.
… and I am scared.
