Busted, the Island Adventure and the Shakers!!!

Busted

I’ve been keeping a huge secret from someone so close to avoid getting my ass screwed. It’s not offensive or even harmful. It’s actually a crappy feeling I have for this certain person. I’ve been keeping an eye on this person for about three months and secretly molesting him in my imagination (just kiddin’). But it never occurred to me that confessing my unfathomable desire could be an option. I’d rather keep it, burned it and buried it 12 feet under. Complicated situation is the last thing I need right now.

But as my old folks would say… Walang sikretong hindi nabubunyag. In just a 2 minute conversation, I went pale, felt dehydrated and constipated at the same time, beads running in my temples, I was shivering, I am stuttering… He caught me red-handed! I’m doomed! But I guess it wasn’t much of a big deal so things are still ok… I think so!



The Island Adventure

I never thought being trapped in a remote island could be so much fun. Though it scared the shit out of me, in the end, things were considered as BBRC’s ultimate adventure. Carlo, Ryan and I planned an out of town outing last weekend. Despite of Carlo’s lost license and star card; we drove Bogart all the way to Zambales. To make the whole story short, we landed ourselves in a remote island in Pundaqui Zambales. The commoners called that island Camara. Since there were no available rooms in the resort we decided to spend the night in the island. It didn’t occurred to us that the weather was so effin’ unpredictable so by 7pm, it started raining. The rain wasn’t just tiny droplets of bead, it was a typhoon. We don’t have a light, we don’t have enough food and we don’t know how to swim… alas! We’re screwed! Water started to enter our tent so we have no choice but to protect our things from getting wet. We manage to survive that situation till morning. So what can I say? Amazing race, Survivor and Blairwitch project all in one show!



And the Shakers

Last night was enjoyable. Since, I am hanging out with the Dell babies… everything is surprisingly spectacular. It all began when Baby Girl and I forcedly invite ourselves (again) to watch the Shakers rockin’ in Sazi’s. Since the gig will not start until 9pm and we have a lot of time to chill… I invited them to spend our idle moments in my crib. We have so much time in our hands so we decided to start the fun. Tanduay plus Coke plus lechon manok plus videoke equals uber crazy night. My head was swirling and my face was getting numb. My night ended with me pinching the Almighty Don in the ass twice and with a powerful smash in the head from Baby Girl. Sounds cool… ayt?

Ang gwapo ni Kean ng Callalily!!!!

I’m A Big Big Girl In a Big Big World

It’s been a week since the douchebag “gay” co-worker left me in this jungle. And I thought I couldn’t survive a day without someone who could rewire my sanity and tolerate my occasional “blonde moments”. I thought the adjustment period will be so damn tough and I am actually scared of it which to the extent that I don’t want to talk or even think about it. I just let it happen like I don’t give an effin care.

Keeping your existence in this sweatshop is something you couldn’t use to. It’s like an everyday learning process or a fortune cookie which you’ll never have a single clue with what’s inside till you crack it. And somehow, I have stayed in here without passing out with the help of that particular fag. Seriously, I didn’t get emoish which they all expected when he decided to quit the job. Well, that signifies that I am a big girl now and I could handle things by myself. Of course, the digital gay dream is still here (though I need to choose between waking up too early or staying up too late just to have an actual conversation) so that really helps a lot.

The grand poker night went through with enough satisfaction. As expected, we boozed ourselves up to the limit, did some scandalous acts, cursed people and even touched (unintentional) someone else’s boobies (LMAO!!!) The party went off till sunrise and the only thing that kept us from breaking our vocal chords was the fact that we were so damn exhausted. I literally passed out without even making it to the real bed. I woke up hugging my bag, curled in the sofa with intolerable stomach ache. I scanned the area and recognized I wasn’t home yet. Thirty minutes later, the rest of the group were all up and I knew it was time to go home.

The booze I took that night made me realize that things are happening the way it should be; that I should learn how to stand alone and be brave to face all the shitty things that will come my way; that I should learn not to depend to other people. And maybe, just maybe… I was so scared to be alone not because I couldn’t be me but because I am scared to open up the real me. I was too ashamed to let this world know who I really am. I tend to pretend to be someone that I am not to cover up my shortcomings. I was so scared that they might not accept me the emoish, klutzy and insane me… Luckily, things are getting better. Slowly, things are getting better.

Yes, I am not witty or trivia cracker… I have lots of bloopers and retard moments. But I am funny and gregarious. So whether they accept me or not… I would still enjoy the remaining time that I will spent here in this sweet jungle. .. Seriously, the whole corporate idea wasn’t that bad after all.

Fat or Fit?

To start of with, I went to the gym yesterday. While the whole Philippines was mourning and joining the late former President Cory Aquino on her burial, I was in the gym sweating my fats away. I don’t know, it’s just that I only have few hours for my leisure (and now I consider exercise as a leisure) and that’s the only time I could burn calories. Sorry naman!

After I’ve slackened my lards away, my whole body is throbbing like hell. I already saw it coming and I knew I am doing it right. I’ve been taking my 6 month plan seriously and I am willing to give up my pig out fun just to pull this one off. I don’t exactly remember the time when I became enthusiastic in any sports but I definitely enjoying it now. Yes, I did some volleyball games from the past, but that didn’t made sense to me. At first, I am so determined to lose weight for a very stupid reason (which I don’t prefer to talk about) but now things are coming off differently. I actually wanted this for myself and not for someone else’s benefit.

Life is starting to get bitchy again. I am caught up between facing a nerve wracking challenge and a potentially flourishing friendship. I might reconsider ending my current job and prefer the other one (see previous entry; Bulleted Thoughts) The price is so tempting, I couldn’t even blink. Much to my surprise, the client is giving me all of my demands just to get me off of this current job. That scares the shit out of my ass. Me karapatan silang mag-kupal dahil malaki ang offer nila. Seriously, I don’t know what to do… I am just waiting for more signs.